I met Rachel Jones in a writing class at the Loft Literary Center in Minneapolis. She and her husband Tom are preparing this fall to live in Djibouti (again) to work and live. She is an aspiring writer and wonderful mother. I feel honored to know her and her family. Thank you, Rachel, for contributing to Flash Fiction Friday on Big Bluestem Blog.
(Readers, keep her in mind; she will be a published, well-known author in the future!!)
The Other Woman
My
house doesn’t have walls or floors or ceilings. The two-room bubble hunches
over the rocky ground, made of twigs, rags, and animal hides. There is no light
and no window and cool breezes never stir the see-through curtain dividing the aqal in half. I have to bend from my
waist and shove aside a flap of goatskin to walk through the low doorway. Unsi burns, filling my home with spicy, intoxicating perfume. Everything is drenched in shadow, from
the single water jug to my weathered skin.
I
am weaving a water basket to meet the needs of my growing family. I pull the
dried grasses tight, careful to not leave even a miniscule hole through which
water carried from the Jubba River would drip. To save water, I scrub our
cooking pot and wash my arms, face, and legs for prayer with fistfuls of dirt.
I drink goat milk and one cup of tea every day.
I
hear the children playing outside and feel the sharp kick of the one in my
belly. My three daughters and four sons play soccer with the cow stomach I gave
them at the end of Ramadan. I chant as I weave, poems of boys who have come
home from grazing camels or searching for rain clouds. I almost scold the girls
for running, showing off too much of their legs but tomorrow they will sit with
me, weaving, cooking, sewing. Even Samsam who was born only five rainy seasons
ago.
Today
is a holiday. Eid Carafo, marking the
the hajj to Mecca. No one in my
family has ever gone on pilgrimage. I have never even gone into a Somali town.
My husband is there today, selling goats and trading for necessities; rice and
flour.
This
morning when he left, my husband took too many goats with him. I fear he is
trading for more than necessities. I fear he was preparing the bride price for
a second wife, a city wife to keep him company. While I was beating laxoox for breakfast, I saw him leading
all those goats from our herds and ran after him.
“What
are you doing?” I asked.
“Taking
these goats to town,” he said.
“Why?”
“To
sell them.”
“You’re
buying a new wife.”
“Woman,
you are half-mad.”
I
brandished our knife in his face. “You will not
take a new wife.”
“I
will do as I please.” He shoved me.
“Ninka awrka cirka arkey dameerka xeerka ka
tuurey.” A man sees a camel in the sky and throws away the donkey in his
yard.
He
spit next to my ankle. “Make a new bed ready for tonight.” He walked away.
“If
you take a new wife I’ll die!” I screamed and the wind howled, sucking my words
away, blowing them across the desert like dead thorn bushes.
And
now I sit, weaving, waiting for my husband to return so we can slaughter a goat
and celebrate the forgiveness of our sins and Nebi Ibrahim’s willingness to sacrifice his own son. I told my
children the story the night before so that they would know why we celebrate Eid Carafo.
Allah told Ibrahim to take his son into the mountains.
He was to bind his son as a ram and slaughter him, offering a burnt sacrifice
of praise. Ibrahim obeyed and tied his son to the altar. He raised a knife over
his head, ready to thrust it into his son’s heart.
Samsam
covered her face with her hands. My other daughters trembled but my sons sat
tall and brave.
“Ibrahim!” Allah called to him. “Do not kill
the boy. Now I know you love me above all. You are a true Muslim.”’
Ibrahim
heard the cry of a ram caught in a thorn bush. He and his son killed the ram
and worshipped Allah on the mountain.
I
make a loop of dry grass and shove another blade through it. Tug and yank.
Repeat. My mother taught me basket-weaving. She had been minweynta, the first wife. Her husband married three other women,
each younger, more beautiful, fatter and more fertile than the last.
When
he brought the second wife home, my mother welcomed her with kisses and a new
dress. Minyarta, the young wife,
slapped my mother and called her an old hag. My father built his young wife an aqal beside my mother’s. He never
entered my mother’s aqal again. The
new wife was honored and treasured above my mother for four rains, long enough
to give birth to two boys.
Then
father brought home his third wife. My mother didn’t greet her but sat with her
back to the new aqal. The third wife
provided two daughters and a son before he brought home his fourth wife. That
night my mother wept into her hands as I scraped at her toe nails with a razor.
This girl had not begun her time of blood yet. But over time she provided him
with four girls and two boys.
If my husband brings home a new wife, I will
die.
I
pull our knife from the folds of my dress. The shadow from the aqal falls over it, but a sliver of
light glints off its blade. I am alone. The children are outside and no other
family has settled nearby. There are no women to gossip with, only my growing
belly and my fingers weaving, weaving.
I
watch my hands pulling and twisting and looping. They are powerful and create
watertight baskets. They held eight children to the breast and buried one. They
load camels and build aqals, cook
rice and spread henna in my husband’s hair. My hands are powerless. They cannot
bring the rain or stop hyenas from ravaging our flocks. Tonight they will greet
the new wife.
I
remember my husband’s command to make a bed ready and set aside my basket. I
sweep dust and rocks from our dusty, rocky floor and gather blankets. I
consider placing a scorpion between them. I stand back, looking at the sleeping
place I have made and run my finger down the dull blade of our knife, drawing
no blood.
I
duck outside, squinting in the daylight and find a large, smooth rock. I spit
on it and sharpen our knife.
I
would enjoy the help of another wife, with seven children and one on the way. I
would enjoy the company, gossip, stories, and poems of another wife. I would be
relieved to share my husband’s endless lust with another wife. My dilemma is
that I am a woman and I don’t want my
husband to take another wife.
I
stare into the nothingness of thorn bushes and dust and picture her face. Our
knife slips from the rock and slices my thigh. I feel more concerned about the
rip in my only dress than the blood painting my leg and I let it bleed. When
the blood slows, I wipe our knife on the ground, leaving red stains in the
dirt.
My
husband doesn’t return until after dark and it is too late to slaughter a goat
for Eid Carafo and the forgiveness of
our sins. He isn’t alone but I can’t see the new wife in the dark night. The
boys sleep under the moon to keep watch for hyenas. While my girls curl up next
to me in the aqal, I worry about our
sins remaining on us for another year. I worry that the hate I feel for this
younger, more beautiful woman will cause Allah to send me to hell.
I
pretend to be asleep when my husband enters. He is speaking with a woman. I
smell her perfume and watch her shadowy shape. She is smaller than I expected,
her breasts saggier. She doesn’t speak and settles into the bed I made. Without
a word, my husband lies down next to her. They don’t talk and soon both are
snoring, curled away from each other.
I
unwrap my arms and legs from my daughters. I approach the woman. Her face is one
with the blackness, her body round and fat, as all second wives should be. I pull
my knife from my dress.
I
raise the knife over my head, just as I imagine Nebi Ibrahim did. I screech and plunge it into the woman’s chest.
Her eyes flash open, their yellowy whites glare at me. Her mouth opens to
scream but no sound comes out. Blood pools around her tongue, behind her four
rotten teeth.
My
husband jumps from his bed. He corners me and tries to wrench the knife from my
hand. I slash it back and forth, hissing. He tackles me and steals the dripping
knife, slicing my palm. I see my daughters standing in the doorway. My sons
have lit our lantern and crouch in the doorway. My husband grabs the lantern
and shines it on the face of the woman.
My
knees wobble. I faint, falling on top of my mother’s dead body.
Rachel Pieh Jones has
written for the New York Times, The Christian Science Monitor, the Desiring God
blog, and Running Times. She lives in Djibouti with her husband and three
children and blogs at:
